What am I going to do in December??

When i was a teacher,my happiest time of the year was december. I would have plans with friends as to where to go for a long needed vacation. Now that i am a student, there's no such luxury. And the funny thing is i don't feel that i need one. May be that's what happened when you are doing something you love. Ok let me list out my december itinerary.

1 to 11 December - Try to finish up Sungai Ingei Budget and Research Proposal; Finish up DNA extraction of Sundamys muelleri from Dist 4.

13 to 20 December - Ornithology Workshop in Tasek Merimbun

21 December - Sleep

22 - 24 December - hoping to go with friends to KK, but chances might be slim as work is pilling up..

25 - 31 December - Finish DNA extraction of Tupaia minor

All work and no play make BB a gila gal..

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Why?

I am sad,no i am actually depressed. Why can't we realise that regardless of religion, skin colour, language barrier, wealth, and all the superficial things, we are the same species??? Why must there be hate and despise among people, to such an extent that people are willing to kill their own kind?? Why??

I believe in reincarnation. I believe we are in this world for reasons, and one of them is to learn life lessons. If in this life time i hate a particular race of people, and I do my very best to harm and torture them, then i believe in my next lifetime, i will be a member of the 'despicable' race and i will have to suffer what i did to others before. I will only be able to progress from the torture once i know the fault of my way.

Why can't we all wake up from the fog that clouds our mind? why can't we see the beauty in others? why must we be only focusing on the negative aspect of a person? Who are we to judge? We are not God and everyone makes mistakes. But if we can forgive and forget, then the God inside each one of us is smiling through our eyes.

Funny. The more technologically advance we are, the more narrow minded we get. Funny huh??

Dear readers, please join me and pray for those who had sacrificed in this race against humanity..

Yes i am very depressed.

I forgot

yea i was reminded by Dr C to include stubbornness and scarcastic as part of my main characters.

I am stubborn, extremely. But i prefer to interpret being stubborn as being determined. Because i am determined, i am doing what i want to do now. If i am not determined, i won't be pursuing my PhD. If i am not determined, i would have succumbed to the surrounding environment and not be pursuing my dreams. So yes I am very stubborn but that is also why people always admire my determination.. see!!

Being sarcastic is so natural for me.. Can't help it la.. When there are so many irritating people and things around us, the only way to entertain ourselves and to stay sane is to be sarcastic towards others and most importantly towards oneself.

All for self preserverance..

To my friends who are supposed to be studying now but instead are reading this post: happy examination and good luck!!!

p/s: Hanie: this post is dedicated to you.. hugs

Who am I??

Do you remember when you were in primary and secondary schools, how you always worry about people's opinion of you? Or may be you still are now.. I was reading through my old diaries, and it made me wonder.. how much have i changed over the years..

I can't remember much about how i was before, but there are 2 things i distinctly remember, and i must say i am still like that now. Are you ready for this relevation?? well people close to me will know this very well.. I am highly impatient and my facial expression will tell you exactly how i feel about things..

I believe i am a loyal person, towards my family and friends. of course my loyalty only extends to those people who i think fits to be loved..

Some people have told me i am cold and distant. Some have told me i am loving and warm.. They are both right.. It's easy for me to make friends, but not easy for me to trust. So if you have earned my trust, then i will be the nicest person you have ever met.. But once the trust is betrayed, i won't forgive.. ya sorry i am that kind of extremist.. i am pretty sure those bombing people belongs to my group.. ha ha ha

Most people will see me as reliable and trustworthy.. that's not entirely right. I am those things because i don't want anything to get screwed up and create more troubles.. is that dependable?? i wonder..

Being reliable is very stressful sometimes.. everyone comes tell you their problems, but who can you tell?? that's when you need a rock.. and thank God i have mine.. thank you..

Yes my impatience.. I know this will be my downfall.. i am trying to change but that takes time.. and i am so impatient for that day to happen.. see how highly 'patient' i am!!!!! And yes i know PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE!!!!!

So if you are my friend, do drop by my chatbox and tell me what kind of person you think i am.. that'll be fun. and hey may be we can have a group debate on that?? what do you think?? on??

Me and My List

I love list. I am a list person. I love to have a list of things to do, and I love to give people list of things they have to do. I am a list person.

I have given lists to the expedition leader, the field manager, to myself, and i am going to give lists to the second boss of Brunei HOB, to my task officers. Oh i love lists.. Do you??


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me the logistic manager?? what??? are you sure???

Brunei will be hosting the first Brunei HOB expedition in Sungai Ingei, Ulu Belait in 2009/2010. Dr Charles is the overall leader of the expedition, and has appointed me as the logistic manager. When he first approached me for the job, my reaction was what the heck does a logistic manager do?? what is logistic??? WHAT???? For the next few days, i was expressing doubts whether i could really handle the job or not. I don't want to mess up the expedition and apparently this job plays a vital role in its success..

One afternoon Dr C asked me to go down with him to FOS ground floor and meet someone important. There is the boss of Brunei HOB, and Dr C mentioned about me being the logistic manager, and my reluctance in accepting the job. The boss being a boss just say one sentence: "Oh don't worry she has the passion, she will do it!!" My feeling was like what has passion got to do with this??? but what else can i say?? hence you are now reading the entry of the logistic manager for the expedition..

A day in the life of a PhD student in UBD

My day in UBD usually starts around 0930..and the day will start with this person coming into my office looking happy and cheerful.. When i see this person's face i know ah more work...

So my dear supervisor will come into the room and start asking me things like: 'what's the budget like for the cat surveys?' 'How many cameras are we getting?' ' have you seen metis they all?' 'I am going to kill all the project students....' and blah blah blah the questions go on and on and on...

See my face?? so CB face right?? and see all the papers, files and books around me, on my table and my cabinets?? very busy one bah.. not like someone i know only goyang kaki all the time... he he he (who ah??) See Dr Charles face?? very serious discussion in session.. but hey who's foot was that??

More often than none, i have other visitors too apart from the man who loves to give me extra job.. My room is officially a complaint room, makan room, lepak room and most importantly gossip room... here cath is strutting her stuff but Dr C has no eyes to see her lo.. May be he thinks the cat budget is more interesting than Cath??? Ouch!!!

And sometimes a poor begger will come and sit next to my feet, looking forlorn and miserable. This bugger will usually say: 'BB i am hungry.' 'BB i need to zee Dr C.' 'BB can i use your printer??" So miserably sad huh??

In this picture, the begger pretends to be reading Belalong book but we know he's waiting for someone to bring him food... poor begger..

In a good days, the supervisor, the foot man and the begger will be engaged in interesting scientific discussions.. but usually end up with someone manjaing.. here the begger wanted to go toilet so he's practising..

Sometimes the clever man Andery will come into my room too but pity there's no pics of him.. he's all serious and focus not like the other people you saw in this post..

I am sure i'm pretty unpopular in this office block due to the noise these people make in my room.. imagine the correlation curve between the number of people in my room and the noise level????